I keep thinking of entries I want to add to my ‘blog’ but never seem to find the time to do them. Guess that’s cause most of my hobbies center around the computer and when I’m in front of one, which is like 15 hours a day, I tend to drift towards the bigger projects that are more visible and less ‘selfish’ than a blog. I mean.. what’s more important, promoting the folk concert I’m organizing this Friday at the UU church up here, doing WERU’s Full Circle Summer Fair web page and booking acts for that fair, setting up my cousin’s family photo gallery, updating and overhauling Bobbi Lane‘s way out of date website for her before it’s been a week since I told her I would, working on the Star Island Pelicans website or doing stuff for my own site. (Note all the above projects are gratis, if only I could learn to make money doing this stuff!)
Also, what with friends whose journals are fun and interesting to read, it’s hard for a geek like me to keep up with the more verbose literary and interesting Jones’.
So in an effort to nudge me into writing some more entries in my journal I’m just going to start listing one or two sentence summaries of entries I want to elaborate on some day, whether they are memory core dumps of events in my life that I want to record for posterities sake, or just ‘epiphanies’ I’ve had about things.
Also, I’m going to lower my criteria for publishing. Believe it or not to date I’ve deemed some entries too boring for public consumption until I refined them more.. and of course then I never get to to them or just toss them. So I’m going to start just letting ‘er rip, damn the torpedos, throw caution into the wind and ‘jump off the high board’.
For example, last night while driving from Portsmouth, NH to Ellsworth, ME (208 miles) I was listening to ‘Cat Stevens Greatest Hits’ in the CD player and realized why I liked that CD so much in High School.. and why I even adopted Moonshadow as my BBS moniker from it at the time. It’s filled with songs like ‘I’m Ready To Love’ and ‘I Can’t Keep It In’, and of course ‘Another Saturday Night’… all perfect 15 year old male songs saying ‘hey girls, notice me, LOVE ME DAMNIT!’.
I’ve got to show the world, world’s got to see, see all the love… love that’s in me.
I said, why walk alone, why worry when it’s warm over here.
So yes instead of actually, you know, doing social things and maybe actually talking with above referenced girls in High School, I sat at home in front of the computer listening to 70’s folk rock and bonding with the teen angst paralells in the song. Eventually this led to meeting some folks from the BBS’s I was calling who became my immediate clique. That’s social… “Demented and sad, but social”
Come to think of it other songs I remember feeling matches with in high school were:
John Mellencamp ‘Rumbleseat’ – I don’t even remember the lyrics to this song much anymore, something about rolling with the punches and making the most of the bumpy ride.
Of course there was the line in “Jack & Diane” where he says ‘Hold on to 16 as long as you can, changes come around real soon make us women and men’. I remember being pretty damn depressed on my 17th birthday thanks to that line, thanks John.
I’ll think of more later.. of course since HS I dove head first into the folk/singer-songwriter circles, so all my lyric references from .. oh 1988 or so are pretty obscure, but I’ll core dump them here sometime.
For now though it’s 11:50 PM.. and I should have walked the dogs and gone to bed an hour ago. DAMN YOU TIVO! Good night.